I prayed for language To sing out loud this joy confusion And bliss Now I’m back here And words don’t make any sense Why of all things I chose language I have no idea

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Joy
Ain’t curious about the world
vast and beautiful towns
they ain’t gonna tell me more
than this bunch of roadside rocksAin’t curious about the people
who studied wisdom in depth
I’m content with just anybody
just anyone will be okayAin’t curious about the books either
feel free to mock me if you wish
I know quite a few things without them
I know what it means to liveI sat down under a tree
alone and feeling at peace
oh God, my luck and joy
how can I thank you for this***
This is a translation of “Szczęście”, a poem by Julian Tuwim
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Temple
I’m done
building castlesthese walls
haven’t done much
to protect meand now they’re
ripping at
the seamsnaked I plunge in the
black velvety voidthe Unspeakable
is my home
againcrystals form out of
sheer nothingness
in my handswhatever I touch
turns into
a temple -
Slow motion
in the beginning
was the Wordtearing a perfect
Whole apartnuclear blast
creating worldsand wiping them
out of existenceall of ten
million things aroundcast glints of
this eternal lightyour eyes
sparks of the timeless flameBig Bang
in slow motion -
Time of Completion
I look behind and see
So many many empty hours
I tremble with fear
I tremble with fear becauseI know how much is gone
I know how much is gone
But don’t know don’t know don’t know
How much is still leftAnd I wouldn’t want to just simply
Just simply pass by
And I wouldn’t want to just simply
Just simply pass bySo many days have passed
Days without my attendance
It’s high time I stop
It’s high time I stopWaiting for things that might never ever
Never ever come here
That might never ever
Never ever come hereAnd I wouldn’t want to just simply
Just simply pass by
And I wouldn’t want to just simply
Just simply pass bySo lace your fingers through mine
And come, guide and let others guide you
Where the good time awaitsGood time of completion
Good time of completion***
This is my translation of the song “Czas Spełnienia” by a Polish reggae band Indios Bravos
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Spin
zoom in
zoom out
get a feel of the macro
and micro scalenebulae and
amino acids
will make your head spin
if you let themin this curious parade
of creatures
beings entities
and stuffI settle into
the dizzinessso that I can
keep spinning with them
forever -
Wobbliness
been staring
at the infinity
for too longhoping it
would reveal
some of its secretsall I got
is this hesitant
wobblinesswhenever I try to
set my foot
on earth again -
Refuge
how can I
build my house
at the verge of an abyssthe more I see
the further down
infinite black expandsI pray
for a refugeknowing well
that
here is my refuge and my homewith all my courage I put
one brick
upon anotherweeping they won’t
last together
for very long -
Tsunami
I prayed
For the Ocean
To open my heartTsunami
Waves of compassion
Knocked me downUtterly
HelplessCrashed me
Onto the shoreOf despair
I tried to
Put myself
Back togetherI tried to look
The other wayBut the Ocean
Is still calling meIt’s time
I learn
To ride the wave -
Desert
been dreaming of
the desertuntil the dreams came true
there’s nothing but
the dust
fierce wind and
raging seaI thought I’d
face the truth and
know myselfbut somehow
all I did
was to bury
my headin hot black sand
maybe this is all
that’s there to knowabout me
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In silence
I’ve pulled off
all of my skin
I’m standing
before you nakedit hurts me so much
to carry
all these old wounds
unprotectedI started
weaving a song
to make it my shield
and asylumthen stopped
enough band aids
and songsI can stand with this in silence