Mind mapping

Staring at a blank page terrifies me. I’m only comfortable writing about things I can place in a larger context, and understand how they relate to everything else. At the same time, I get to understand new concepts mostly through writing and talking with other people. I often have a vague feeling that I know […]

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Stressed? Shake it off. Literally.

Driving was always a stressful experience for me. I only drive a few times per year, cause where I live it’s usually the least convenient option. I never got to practice it enough to feel comfortable as a driver. Knowing I am in charge of a runaway metal bullet that might kill someone if I […]

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To be afraid hardly means to be in danger

There’s so many things I haven’t done because of fear. There’s even more that I did after months or even years of procrastinating. Quitting an old job or starting a new one, asking someone out or breaking up, starting a new project or saying no to someone asking for a favor. At one point I […]

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Glitter jar

At a workshop today the teacher introduced me to a mindfulness jar. It’s not that different from a snow globe, a transparent vessel with some dense liquid and glitter in it, designed to be shaken up. In its most chaotic state, the jar represents what happens in your mind when you’re stressed and overwhelmed, with […]

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Follow the breath and let go

I learned so many incredible things during Apotheosis, that I’ll keep unpacking them for a few more days at least. Yesterday I wrote about how feeling sorry for people deprives them of agency. My next favorite one is that an emotion–a physical sensation in the body–lasts normally for just 15-30 seconds. I can already see […]

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